FERTILITY TALES BY Dr.Nordi
I know you will be wondering how my friend get pregnant, and I got heart broken, hmmm. The truth really is there’s nothing physically wrong with either of us. We’ve had all the tests, and they’ve all come back with a perfect OK. Nothing’s wrong with either of us. We just haven’t conceived yet.
But how can I tell these my apparently super-fertile friend about my inability to get pregnant? I know she is so super-fertile, because people like her delight in telling others how quickly they fall pregnant. I find myself drifting from Clara as she embarks on a new phase of her life that I can’t follow. I’m being left behind and it’s painful, it’s hurting, its heart breaking. I try. I really try, but I can’t seem to cope.
But how can I tell these my apparently super-fertile friend about my inability to get pregnant? I know she is so super-fertile, because people like her delight in telling others how quickly they fall pregnant. I find myself drifting from Clara as she embarks on a new phase of her life that I can’t follow. I’m being left behind and it’s painful, it’s hurting, its heart breaking. I try. I really try, but I can’t seem to cope.
How can I tell Clara about “the waiting”. That every month for over three years, two weeks of each month are torture for me as I wait to see if perhaps this month, things have worked. And just in case they have, will they last? But the double line on the pregnancy test never appears and I am left with a bitter taste in my mouth. How many times have I worried myself sick over this development?
John has always had a rather peculiar attitude towards the whole matter. It’s not that he complains or blames me or anyone in particular for our woes. On the contrary, he’s been supportive to an extent. We’ve been through all the tests together. He’s always been there, but only physically. I cannot help feeling that his mind isn’t in it. Much of the time, he says nothing at all. He doesn’t talk about it or express emotion whatsoever. He’s just so quiet and “nice” all the time. He’s almost indifferent. Certainly he wants his own child because I’ve often see him looking longingly at our neighbors’ little children as they run about laughing and playing in the compound.
“Don’t worry, Alice my dear,” he would say. “Let’s trust and hope in God. It is well, you will get pregnant before this year ends.” This it about the only remark I can ever remember him expressing since our childless ordeal began. He’s always so calm even when I’m going out of my mind with worry. I’ve been often been tempted to wonder if he’s up to something funny, but I’m in no position to prove anything. Nevertheless, this attitude of his really kills me. I’m ever so pained because I know he desperately desires to be a father as much as I’m longing to be a mother.
This is really a good development because recently, someone talked to us for the first time about Assisted Reproduction Techniques (ART) and I got to know about IVF. We have learned a lot and are still learning. But in my heart of hearts I’m convinced this is the solution to our problem. I’ve never felt so convinced of anything in my life, yet now that I’m face-to-face with the famous IVF, I’m petrified.
My first cycle is today yet here I am asking what if it doesn’t work. Where do we go from here? It sounds incredible, but the worst of all of this is that I don’t even know why I want children. I can only describe it as a desperate longing inside me, a physical ache. Each enquiry of “when are you going to have children” still hurts so much I can barely breathe for the pain. But I’m learning to smile, reply, and turn away and carry on desperately hoping that maybe, just maybe, this cycle will be the one. Getting pregnant and having my baby is all i wish for.
But I’m learning to smile, reply, and turn away and carry on desperately hoping that maybe, just maybe, this cycle will be the one. Getting pregnant and having my baby is all i wish for.
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